Life can be an odd thing with people coming in and out of it each effecting you in different ways. I sometimes wonder if what they teach me i stat everyone leaves eventually just ilk someday you will leave someone .

Every time someone comes into your life enjoy it and be happy as you never know this could be the person you spend all of your life talking with and laughing at their rubbish jokes. Sometimes people come into your life simply to leave it and then eventually you will forget them.

I am about to embark on the brilliant GCSEs and in 6 weeks I won’t see many of my friends as they go off to other colleges and 6th forms whilst I stay with the others. I will be saying goodbye to people who have effected my life for around three years and next september more people will come into it. I don’t think they will replace those who have left but they will simply be different you can never replace people like for like and if you can then maybe they weren’t that important in the place.

Recently one of my friends from Australia contacted me and we have reconnected and i haven’t laughed at memories so much in such short time before and I know that he hasn’t been replaced and he won’t replace someone. My life has involved a lot of coming and going and moving and leaving so i have made friends quickly and lost them just as fast. I understand that not everyone is in your life to stay forever and someone who is your best friend or the most important person to you know may not be in 10 years. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t cherish those in you rife at the moment as in the future they may make a reappearance and you’ll want amazing memories to look back at instead of regrets.

Teen to teen out



Don’t let it get to you

Recently at work we had an agency chef come in who made me feel uncomfortable and frustrated. I fact this is the only person in the 3 years I have worked there to make me cry.

Throughout my shift this man would pay my head saying that he was proud of how well someone of my age could do as a chef. The chef the went on to say that he shouldn’t be to surprised I can cook as I’m a girl so therefore it’s in my DNA. Obviously this wasn’t fun to work with for an 8 hour shift especially as he was 1 1/2 hours late to work and also blamed me for everything he did wrong.

This particular man made me cry after 6 hours the last straw being him trying to change a dish that was actually my own recipe for the menu. As I said before this is the only time I’ve cried in the 3 years I worked in the kitchen and is also the only time I questioned wether I wanted to be a chef in the future.

I wanted to share this with you as I think it’s horrible how just one person can make us consider not following our dream and make us question everything we stand for. I wanted you to know that everyone has those moments but what makes this moment just a hiccup and not a life changing decision is how you deal with it. Sometimes having a cry and a rant to a family member or friend (try to avoid work colleagues) is the best option as they can give you advice instead of bottling it up inside. You just have to remember this is one person in your life, one inconsequential person who could be just another name in the sea of people you’ve met or it could be the person you tell your kids about as they are the ones that made you question yourself.

Please comment and feel free to email me if you want help or someone to talk to. (

Teen to teen out

Harmful thoughts don’t have to lead to harm

They look down at your arm
you notice their alarm.
“Where did you get that?”
“It was just my cat.”
Then you walk away trying not to cry
another day of living the lie.
Until one day someone realises
pulls up their sleeve and sympathises.
“I have a cat too,
theirs a lot of people like me and you.”
They begin to help you through the bad times
making you realise your thoughts aren’t crimes.
Till one day your cat is no more
but your nightmares still their when they close the door.
The memories from the past
in your head there to last.
The urges subside
So that your enemy is no longer your own life.


I just wanted you to know that I did write this one night when I was bored but I felt like I had to share it with you. I wanted you to all know that i have had years of harmful thoughts and that they are sill there but thanks to some great friends they have subsided.

Obviously not everyone who reads this is harming themselves mentally or physically but the majority of you will know someone who does even if you don’t know so yet. Sadly there  aren’t any statistics for this issue as often nobody knows it is happening to someone until they ask for help or have to get help once it has gone to far. I wanted you to know that I am here for support or any questions you have on how to deal with it yourself or how to help someone else.

I also wanted to say that lots of people get bullied if their scars are accidentally revealed which then leads to them spiralling downward quicker. I know this personally as once in PE i had forgotten my jumper so couldn’t hide my scars which lead to people accusing me of being an attention seeker and rumours going around the school of why I had these scars. Sometimes people “accidentally” show their scars as they are screaming of help so therefore in a kind and polite way you should offer your support.

I’m sorry for this being so long but it is a topic that I am passionate about.

As always, and even more so with this topic, please comment and as I now it is a touchy subject feel free to email me ( ) and I will get back to you within 1-2 days.

Teen to teen out



I wonder

Sometimes I wonder just how important my opinions, thoughts and ideas. As I write these posts I wonder wether any of you relate of care about whenever I spill my heart out.

I have also had some thoughts as someone form school found this blog and threatened to share it around which wouldn’t be good as then people would realise what I really thought of all the rubbish situations I’ve been in and all the things I’ve hidden form my past. Due to this I have made my blog anonymous and have gone though comments that use my full name etc. and elected them and have changed my username and email address for you to contact me at. This isn’t as I’m ashamed of this blog I just don’t want there to be another thing that can be used against me at school. I hope you understand.

as always comment, share and email me @ as I love hearing your opinions and stories and I will always reply to you.

Teen to teen out x



The true meaning of a friend 

Today I found out what the meaning of a true friend is. It’s someone who laughs well you fall but also helps you up. It’s someone who always knows what to say but doesn’t always feel like they have to say it. It’s someone that you can dream and sing down the street with and know that they don’t find that weird. 

I have finally found someone that’s like that. I wouldn’t say she is my best friend and I’m sure I’m not hers but I know that if I need to cry hers is the shoulder that I’ll cry on and that when I laugh she won’t judge that I sound like a dolphin. Never let someone who makes you happy go but also never make them stay, just give them a choice and hope they make the one that make you happiest. 

I am nothing like this person on paper ,or atleast o didn’t used to be. Because of my slightly less than perfect previous school experience I decided to keep my head down and not be to well known unlike this person who is loud and everyone likes her. We only really hate a passion of one band but somehow that has brought us close and now I have be come the happy,talkative and funny (innuendo filled) person I was before and that is the best feeling. Somepeople see it as changing but I just see it as returning to myself again. 

Please comment and email me. 

Teen to teen out


Awkward moments

Last week I had a small incident with some ‘friends’ where when j went to sit with them they replied “you can’t sit with us” I laughed as I thought they were quoting mean girls but then they shouted it and I realised they were being serious. This is made worse as its the 5th friendship group this year that have done this. Honestly you’d think I was social plague (which I guess I sorta am. 
Anyway I’ve manned to make good friends with the librarian (I know how cliche) and don’t mind the fact that no one ever talks to me unless they have problem or are forced to by the teacher. The problem became worse today though. 
My dad owns a caffe that I work in the kitchens at and so does this girl from my school. She was the one that screamed at me in the playground to make it worse. When I walked in I didn’t know the arrangement of us working together so when I saw her I froze. Again to embarrass me even further the caffe was packed with school friends and they noticed and laughed. I walked down into the basement to change into my work clothes and when I went back up I just pretended it never happened. This thankfully worked for the shift until staff lunch break came and I had to sit wit the girl. I tried to make conversation until i gave up when she decided that flirting with anything that had a dick was more fun. 
I went home thankfully the day was over and I hadn’t been stabbed in the back literally. 
I just wondered if any of you have had these situations where your stuck with someone you either hate or knows hates you and any advice you have. 
Please comment and email me below. 
Teen to teen out